ok. so this blog's pretty much fucked. my archives are gone,cant seem to recover em'. this would probably be my last fckin' post. so yeap.im gonna move onto something else. not sure yet.if i cant find a decent blogger skin i'll prolly move to livejournal. then start everything afresh.
and my sis is leaving tomorrow.appox 24 hrs to her leaving on a fucking plane bound for brisbane. which is fucked up. and my mom will prolly cry again when she leaves.& then we'll have that weird drive home where its just fucking awkward silence but you know everyone is thinking th same thing. in th last 3 yrs,my sis has prolly stayed in s'pore for most to most a yr? yeap.saddening. maybe this is just fucking part & parcel of life huh. years going past,people drifting away. (and i've yet to meet anyone from sec school in like forever.and its my fucking fault) sooner or later we're all gonna lose everyone. i've been pretty much a disappointment all my life. waking up everyday seems to be like a job to me,a fucking job with no pay & nothing good in return. life is just too fucking complex to understand. i.need.to.get.away.from.everything.
& i found my dads old compact camera. th lcds cracked.im prolly gonna use it for fun.experiment a lil' with it.
im prolly gonna create a fb account like soon. cuz everyones on it. my sis showed me like all my cousins profile on it. and apparently my german cousins have facebook too. (i feel like such a sucker.) and i bet they'll be like "oh my fucking asian cousin which i see once ever 3 yrs." dope. so yeap,gonna create one when i have time.
and now im gonna let this page rot forever. the past,the love,the memories.
